Friday, July 13, 2012

Our human Condition

Success... what is it? The elusive breath that rarely a woman in her thirty's can say she has accomplished. (between you and me, I believe success is never really achieved. Those of us drawn to success always look beyond our obtainable goal.) Have we been successful? oh yeah. Have we achieved our goals? some of them.

 Seems to me that we set out life with one set of goals and by the time we hit 29 we take a step back and realize that we have completely changed. And we rewrite the pages of our heart. Our rule book expands. Gratitude emerges. The fact that we did not reach some of our ardent originals settles deep and the mixture of pain and relief purifies our soul.

The older I get the more I realize that knowledge is both fleeting and eternal. My sole purpose is to obtain it.. and hang onto it for all it's worth. By "hang on" I mean USE it.  Knowledge unused is knowledge wasted.

Yet, how many times do I catch myself meandering through life.
Days are tricky. They will take me down their path; make the schedule, tie the knots. I smile, I tickle, I cook and create, meet with clients and sign another contract.... believing that I am in control of my destiny... and then in one moment I realize I have not progressed... I have maintained.   I have lost sight of where it is I am to go.

And I hit a wall.
Sometimes, I hit hard.

We all hit walls, right? Times where we do not know where to turn, whether physically, professionally, emotionally, relationally, spiritually, and on the list goes. Hitting the wall is not the dangerous part... how we respond is. Response dictates our future. Often the wall brings feelings and feelings are never (rarely) friendly. Feelings want to control. Feelings want ease and rest. Feelings want coddled and are pervasively self seeking. Feelings ultimately destroy.

The temptation is always present to go with our NATURAL feelings. To seek out comfort. I call it the ultimate human condition. But it just takes a decision. Just one decision to turn the tide.

Simply put, a continual awareness of our destiny presents our choice: To sleep or study. To eat cake or fruit. Do I drink Pepsi or H2O? Watch a movie or go for a run, pray or play.

Little decisions pave the way for the big ones. To follow my heart or my head. Get angry or pursue relationship. Follow wisdom or habit? Decide what my family of origin taught me or with what I know to be true. To push through when the going gets tough and all I want to do is lay my head on my hands and stop moving..... that is the future!

 It begins in the mind. One decision opens the pathway to possibility.

The pursuit of possibility
plus
Knowledge in action


is success!

2 comments:

  1. Angel,
    This is beautiful!!! Your sweet words winding through painting pictures in my mind reach my soul and touch it.
    Thank you.
    Keep writing.
    Keep pushing.
    Keep pursuing.

    Blessed by you!

    Claudia

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