I am doing it. Juggling. Kids and my own business. It is happening. Almost like I envisioned it. I am slowly building clientele, slowly making money, slowly realizing that THIS IS HAPPENING. I couldn't be more excited. I am nothing like the incredible woman who just jumped to Yahoo CEO from Google for $70 million. But, that's not what I envisioned. I am from central PA, after all.
This venture has been in the works in my heart for a LONG time. I owned my own business and had repeat clients in two areas for 12 years. As I worked, made contacts, listened, etc I began to develop my business plan for my ideal job. I wanted to meet a need. A need I saw all around me. However, my timeline was closer to age 40. How did I get here now?
I see life as a learning process. I take each relationship, experience, conversation, job and absorb as much as I can. I am a sum of my parts. I have done MANY things. Some on purpose. Some by chance. See, I believe that true knowledge is breadth and depth. I am a scholar of the human experience. Whatever I have done for the last decade + of my life has been an intentional part of my long term goal.
I had a few set backs along the way. I expected to be a police officer longer... and then the situation with Talon and day care happened. And then I anticipated being a Program director for a long haul... had a 7 year timeline.... but again, shorter than expected. In both cases I went through a time of grieving, of loss, of readjustment in my heart and mind. I had to bury the dreams before I was ready to. It hurt, badly. In each case I found a bit of my soul that had been hidden. The pages of my heart unfurled in the wrenching process revealing the light blue heat of my inner core.
I have always known that I would work. See I get a condition called oatmeal brain (i diagnosed myself) when I am home for too long with only domestic tasks to do. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being domestic; canning, cooking, crafting, flower bedding, gardening, even cleaning. I like to spend quality time with my kiddos and plan elaborate activities. (washing the car counts, right?) But, that is not ALL that I am. I have a brain. A creative brain. I love to learn and process. I like to meet new people and coach. I like to push myself beyond my limits and see what is revealed. It is who I am.
My last job took me away far too many hours. (Did I mention that I did LOVE that job?) I never shrink back from working and working hard... but the passive stress combined with the active stress with a nonequivalent compensation package took it's toll. And it made me realize, really, really, what my priorities are and how to achieve them.
That experience defined my next steps.
And solidified that.... I will never sacrifice my essence for any reason.
It was now or never.
It would be hard.
But not impossible.
I was clear in my objectives. Clear in my methods. And, contrary to my my nature... started slowly.
And it is working.
I have the best of both worlds. Domestic goddess, mother of the Year AND entrepreneur.
(embellishment added)
I am optimistic.
And realistic.
And so very grateful for today.
This venture has been in the works in my heart for a LONG time. I owned my own business and had repeat clients in two areas for 12 years. As I worked, made contacts, listened, etc I began to develop my business plan for my ideal job. I wanted to meet a need. A need I saw all around me. However, my timeline was closer to age 40. How did I get here now?
I see life as a learning process. I take each relationship, experience, conversation, job and absorb as much as I can. I am a sum of my parts. I have done MANY things. Some on purpose. Some by chance. See, I believe that true knowledge is breadth and depth. I am a scholar of the human experience. Whatever I have done for the last decade + of my life has been an intentional part of my long term goal.
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I had a few set backs along the way. I expected to be a police officer longer... and then the situation with Talon and day care happened. And then I anticipated being a Program director for a long haul... had a 7 year timeline.... but again, shorter than expected. In both cases I went through a time of grieving, of loss, of readjustment in my heart and mind. I had to bury the dreams before I was ready to. It hurt, badly. In each case I found a bit of my soul that had been hidden. The pages of my heart unfurled in the wrenching process revealing the light blue heat of my inner core.
I have always known that I would work. See I get a condition called oatmeal brain (i diagnosed myself) when I am home for too long with only domestic tasks to do. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being domestic; canning, cooking, crafting, flower bedding, gardening, even cleaning. I like to spend quality time with my kiddos and plan elaborate activities. (washing the car counts, right?) But, that is not ALL that I am. I have a brain. A creative brain. I love to learn and process. I like to meet new people and coach. I like to push myself beyond my limits and see what is revealed. It is who I am.
My last job took me away far too many hours. (Did I mention that I did LOVE that job?) I never shrink back from working and working hard... but the passive stress combined with the active stress with a nonequivalent compensation package took it's toll. And it made me realize, really, really, what my priorities are and how to achieve them.
That experience defined my next steps.
And solidified that.... I will never sacrifice my essence for any reason.
It was now or never.
It would be hard.
But not impossible.
I was clear in my objectives. Clear in my methods. And, contrary to my my nature... started slowly.
And it is working.
I have the best of both worlds. Domestic goddess, mother of the Year AND entrepreneur.
(embellishment added)
I am optimistic.
And realistic.
And so very grateful for today.
Ara read this and made sure to point out that I AM NOT mother of the year. :) Had to put that out there!
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