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Hubby has been working ALOT. Alot! It really has been an answer to prayer. I have the grace to be alone night after night, the kids are peaceful and the house is generally clean.

I find though, that I do not think very deep. I find myself saying, "Gonna make coffee" over and over in my brain. The repetition of basics that run around in my head creates a dense foggy feeling. As I emerge from time to time I find that I have lost hours where I could have been engaged. I look back and realize that I have lived much of my home life like this. When I am engaged I get more done, I smile more, I read more books(both for me and to the kids). My awareness is a choice that I have
allowed to be sub-consciously controlled.

I am about to go bathe the boys. Let's see how much fun we can have tonight.