Deep in self-contemplation. Waves of self-awareness, self-acceptance, self-contempt.
Evaluating/feeling/ experiencing/knowing myself for the first time at this level. On all fronts.
Knowing what and who I am. Seeing what I want and what I have allowed.
Questioning all my motives then and now, contrasting and comparing.
Asking why and examining how.
Moving on.
I find myself outside of myself, watching, listening, learning. Loving some of it. Loathing most - not the ME parts, the conformist parts. Aching for change. Feeling it come - it is flowers, yoga, mountain summits, beach air, and salty hair.
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