Over and over men who trained for months, even years fell into the waters below the course, defeated. Most of the men returned year after year to try again - to conquer.
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I have been preparing since October 2012. Planning. Scribbling. Dreaming. Redefining.
I have been caught off guard, though. As I plan, the universe is lining up opportunity for me. The woodwork is literally oozing circumstance. All I have to do is follow. Kinda.
I feel like I am reaping fruit from seeds I have planted for years. Some intentional seeds, some unintentional. Some from seeds that I planted in pain, others from seeds I placed in glee, some natural, some not. I walked into my fear. I embraced my trepidation. I went out on a limb. I trusted my gut. And sometimes I told my gut to step off... and I went with wisdom.
I realize that I have been in a new place the last few years. A place of intentional living. I have disciplined my mind. My activities. My lifestyle. I have been judicious with those I allow close. Kind to all. Spoke the truth. Repented. And repented again. I have let things go; preconceived ideas, offenses. I have had a lot of coffee. Spent time staring at walls. Spent time bent over in gratefulness.
As I redefine my faith is growing. And my trust. In myself. In God. In others. I am having to realize that where I thought I would be is not where I am. In some ways it is better. Not all ways. I have laid down my expectations. And while I like this path.... my original intentions were far more grandiose.
My trail is harder than ever, but somehow, I feel equipped.
I have fallen. The water was ICY!
I have slipped... my knees are scarred.
I have failed. My head hung low.
But I am back. A new year. ready to try again.
Stay tuned.
I will stay tuned, my friend. It's gonna be a good one...I feel it...
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